I started this blog some months back as a journal of transformation. I had decided I was going to lose twenty pounds, get in better physical condition, eat better… all in preparation for my upcoming 60th birthday.
Well, I got so caught up in the weight loss and exercise, that I made no time to document it in writing. I happy to say that actually lost twenty-five pounds. My flat belly was restored, there was even some evidence of abdominal muscles. But, it’s with mixed feelings that I admit that I’ve already found twenty of those lost pounds, and once again dread tying my shoes.
I’m exhausted, and I’m sure I’m not alone. It’s no wonder, in light of the great socio-political divide that we are currently experiencing in our nation, this tear in the durable, yet fragile fabric that holds us together. I think that regardless of what side we’re one, we’re feeling the wear and tear wrought by the abrasive forces of our differing ideology, resulting in the erosion of any bonds of our joint psyche in regards to unity.
‘m not here to argue, or defend my beliefs against those of the opposition. I just want to raise my hand above the rabble and say that I’m here, I’m attempting to be optimistic, without compromising my ethics, principles, my desire to question and reason in a pragmatic manner, not fueled by hyperbole and fear.
I’m aware that at nearly sixty years of age, that I have many more days behind me than I do in front of me. Yet, I want to be instrumental in creating a positive environment for myself and others. I want to create a life of value, for whatever time I have left, regardless of the outside circumstances that guarantee my freedom, or might seek to confine me. I cannot and will not surrender my desire and right to think freely, to love whom I please, to express myself creatively. Most of all, I will not surrender my quest to be authentic, to live authentically and transparently; to be an observer, to be objective and have the ability to laugh. To find humor, to hopefully engage others in laughter, and in doing so, provoke them to think, to possibly see things from a different perspective.
All things considered, I have resurrected my resolve to transform my life. Now, it’s not only for matters of health and vanity; but for more sound and logical thinking, for conviction, for the strength to be an active part of the solution. I want to be able to stand strong in the face of adversity, however it may present itself. I will steel myself to defend my human and civil rights, seek and give encouragement to those in support, as well as encourage the opposition to examine their own perceptions and seek out the TRUTH.
It’s time to just write…