When I recently launched this blog it was my intent to be much more prolific in my postings. Over the years I’ve started any number of “self-improvement” programs, some have been of a physical/logistical bent, while others have been more spiritual and ethereal in nature. Nearly all of them warned that one may want to prepare themselves for a certain amount of negativity or resistance as they begin their new venture, but to not disparage or be discouraged, this is merely some sort of karmic or universal resistance, that we were merely to sally forth to reach the rainbow. I’ve always considered this aviso to be so much happy horseshit. Alas, I’m forced to change my views. I no more than got my first couple of blog postings published than I was visited by an old chronic health issue that had long been in remission, not to mention sundry domestic obligations that got in my way. During this past week or so in my period of distraction I’ve certainly had plenty to write about, but just not the physical wherewithal to sit and type. However, I have not allowed my physical discomfort and personal issues to usurp my commitment to this endeavor of life transformation. I dare say that if anything, they have only added to my fortitude and determination. I didn’t allow myself the luxury of using my challenges to put me in a state of self-defeat and lose sight of my goals. This in and of itself as a true measure of improvement. So, I’m back, have lots on my mind that I’d like to share. Just a reminder, this is about my own program of self-transformation. Yes, I have adopted a new nutrition and eating plan. I’ve also made a commitment to more physical exercise, being more concerned with continuity than intensity. That’s not to say that I’m not working vigorously, but I’m certainly not going at it with some delusion that I’ll be 22 again. My transformation really has nothing to do with recapturing youth or past glories, it’s about transforming myself in the NOW. Hell, truth be told, if I were to be truly honest with myself, there aren’t really that many past glories or accomplishments to brag about aspire to. I’m simply fascinated by the fact that a fuck-up like me has made it this far.. I assure you that I’ve defied all predictions of family, friends, and foe alike. Hell, had I seen and held myself and my life in the esteem that I’ve developed today, I quite likely wouldn’t be writing this blog, but would be busily in charge of the machinations of the entire universe. I do not say that to be conceited or arrogant, simply to make apparent the sense of power over my own destiny that I’m allowing myself to recognize and take command of today. So, to clarify. I have no intention to talk about my calorie consumption, a list of foods I’ve eliminated, display a pie chart of my macronutrients, and I particularly have ZERO interest in apologizing or seeking absolution should I fall short of my regimen and consume a cheesecake. Nor, am I going to bore you with details about my workout routine, how many pounds of iron I can pump over my manboobs, or how long I can balance on an inflated ball. I will mention whether or not I’m realizing improvement, and I’ll also openly recognize my challenges, obstacles, and downfalls. But, I am in no manner qualified or equipped to offer diet or workout advice. I’m more concerned in lending and receiving the type of emotional and social support that many of us have not only a need for, but the ability to offer. Experiment, find what best suits and resonates with you. Find your own diet, your own exercise program, your own philosophy, God/god, spiritual program, philosophy. Do what it takes for YOU to realize your own innate and limitless potential.
+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++Note: OK, I will take a boastful moment and admit that I had my body fat percentage professionally measured on Monday.
I’m not going to give numbers here, but I was delightfully pleased that it was significantly lower than any expectations or number I was able to come up with using various formulas that rely upon height/weight/BMI/age or other criteria.