I’M STILL BIG! It’s the pictures that got small…

_MG_7463My most sincere apologies for being so terribly out of touch the past few weeks. My express intent of creating and launching this blog was a practice in self-discipline, primarily my issues with procrastination. I assure you that I was thinking about writing every day, not to mention the fact that I’m surrounded by index cards scribbled with copious notes regarding what I wanted to write about. Many of those notes have become indecipherable due to my sloppy penmanship, while other that were more time sensitive have seen their moment of pertinence pass into oblivion. However, I do take some pleasure in announcing that while I’ve failed to talk the talk, I have made serious inroads into walking the walk. My determination to make a 180 degree has resulted in a working plan and implantation. I have been focusing on my nutrition and eating plan, as well as applied myself to an exercise plan that has paid off in a rather substantial weight loss in a brief period of time, not to mention a truly appreciable change for the better in my cardiovascular profile. I now actually have to mount the treadmill and turn it on in order to reach my target heart rate for fat burning, as opposed to merely stand at a reasonable distance and watch other people walking, jogging, and running whilst going nowhere. At the same time, I’ve been revisited by some long-time chronic issues with spinal stenosis, arthritis, neuropathy, loss of strength and muscle atrophy in my arms. This has been an ongoing issue for many years, and in the past has left me somewhat emotionally bereft. Not only due to the loss of strength, but rather the cosmetic and vanity effect have been somewhat devastating. As a man we want to feel secure in our ability to defend ourselves, not only in the face of attack, but even to have the strength to break a fall. Of course there is also the issue of vanity and ego, wanting to have pride in maintaining our bodies, but feeling discouraged when our bodies don’t comply for any number of reasons. I’ve been fortunate over the years to encounter countless men and women of all ages, facing physical challenges of every imaginable description, many of which one would assume would extremely compromising in the effect it’s had on the person’s appearance, yet that person has went on, not only to thrive and greatly contribute to the greater good of all, but to be perceived as attractive and sexy, despite any visible physical deficit. They have in fact transcended their so -called flaw and made it a part of what makes them uniquely beautiful. I easily lose sight of this ability to persevere and overcome, but just the other day I was reminded by watching a Fetty Whap video, that there is no reason to run from yourself. Embrace yourself, the good the bad, and the ugly. That’s all for now.   My dear friend Chris Ferreria is visiting from San Diego, and I plan to take full advantage of his expertise and artistic eye as a photographer while he’s here.   So, I’ma go do a costume change and get ready for a close-up.
For photographer info: www.christopherferreria.com / www.somekindlymonster.com

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